Anyways, I tell you all that because, ya I wanted to brag a bit, but mostly to start you with pretty much what all women complain about..... their weight. I've always been a pretty curvy girl, not super thin, but not big. Pretty much content and confident in where I was at. But sometimes living with an athlete is difficult.
February 24 2011, Jason and I were blessed with our very first child together, Baby V, we call her. She is one of the most wonderful thing to happen to us. She has turned our whole world upside down, we've gone from wanting to go out into wanting to stay in and watch Cinderella together. We've gone from a party of two, to a party of two and half. It's been wonderful! The pregnancy on the other hand wasn't so great for me, I was sick for 7 of the 9 months I was pregnant. Miserable. Throwing up and fatigue. I ended up loosing a lot of weight in the beginning. Then obviously gained some from my baby. I gained a total of 28 pounds. I was told that I needed to gain more at every appointment, and I was trying. I just couldn't keep food down. Well everything worked out and I had a healthy baby and safe delivery. Afterwards however, I went on a birth control that made me hungry, bloated and angry. I gained even more weight and it was becoming harder to loose.
Jason is naturally skinny. And as a Collegiate Athlete very fit. We can eat the same thing, (which we have been doing and isn't working for me). And he'll say "well, I need to go run" and will run 5+ miles. I can't do that. I don't run unless something is chasing me. I would pretty much be screwed if my life depended on me running. We've tried running together, that ended up me walking home in tears and about an hour of the silent treatment. THAT doesn't work. Jason is a nice guy, he always tells me how great I look and then some, never that I need to loose weight or workout. I just can feel it for myself. I can feel my body not being as healthy anymore. We try to eat healthy. We do, wheat bread, low-fat milk, egg substitute. I don't like to eat fast food, or processed meat. My working out could be a bit better. I have all the excuses most people have, no time, I'd rather be spending time with my family, I'm tired, I'll do it in the morning. I know I have them but I can't help but use them. All I really need to do is put in my Jillian Michaels and burn some calories. But even writing Jillian's name, made me wince.
I've never felt very pressured to look a certain way. But as of lately, I have in my mind. "I am married to an athlete." I always feel like people are judging me and wondering why this Mrs. Athlete is a fatty!? Ugh!!
When Baby V was about 9 months old we got our family pictures taken, I was stoked. Besides the fact my hair wouldn't curl right I knew they were going to turn out wonderful! I had a really cute outfit, we all looked our best, it was about to be awesome. When our photographer finally posted them to her website I hurried on, and saw myself. I cried for a good hour and half. I didn't even look the same! I couldn't believe that was me. I thought okay, maybe it's just a bad angle. But nope. There it was. The pictures were all beautiful everyone looked great. But I couldn't even bare to look at me. I have the pictures hanging in my living room, because seriously they are great of my family.
The Top Picture was our engagements. We were so cute and little :)
(This is the EXACT picture I saw and was horrified)
Obviously, we're sitting so some might say that makes it look bad. But I can promise, it's not the sitting.
I figure if I can make time to Blog now a days, I can make time to put in a workout. Which are going to be my new hobbies. Do some Blogging and give myself a workout. Not necessary in that order.
SO how about some words of encouragement, and you can do it's for this Mrs. Athlete. Because I can, I can do it! I can be extremely confident in myself sometimes, ha but hey, That's me just being, Abbey!
"I've always believed that if you put in the work, the results will come."
Michael Jordan
